Wednesday, February 20, 2013


It happened like a flashlight. You were ripped away from me, and with no effort you faded away from my sight. Despite all the things, what hurt the most was seeing you completely alright with that. It was so devastating that I forced myself to believe the assumption of ‘He left, now you should, too. Stop asking why. It’s clearly because you’re nothing to him and from now on he should be nothing to you, too’.

I copied from my senior's tumblr.. . As I felt the same......

Marques Houston —Sunset

So here is disappointment song kali ya, I saw this on my senior's tumblr. dan ini sangat masuk sekali so I copied it. gatau kenapa.. emosiku membawaku ke tema ini. Yes .... personal experience.

I remember the day you first told me that
I was the girl that had your heart.
From that day forth I knew that nothing would
ever come and tear us apart 

So then people try to warn me about you
Said that I should never trust you 
But so stupid so me I didn’t listen
then I let myself go fall in love with you 

What happened to us?
Were you really in love?
Or was I just a game to prove to yourself you could get me?

Your innocent smile used to drive me wild 
Even though you ain’t innocent at all 
And now I feel so stupid cause I’m the only one
That ever loved you even with all your flaws 

Even your best friend questioned why I still would be with you after knowing your past 
But what she didn’t understand is knowing your past is why I thought we could last 

What happened to us?
We had something special but was I not good enough for you?
Were you really in love?
Or was I just a game to prove to yourself you could get me?


"I dont hate you.. Im just disappointed."


Wednesday, February 13, 2013

(mantan) pasangan autis

soooooo.. malem ini gw mau upload foto2 gue sama ramadhan kidiw yang super super autis. emang ya kalo kita foto mukanya gak pernah ada yang beres, apalagi mukanya si dia  -___- sebenernya telat bgt sih br di upload skrg, secara bok udah gak ada ikatan lagi heheheh. tptp berubung gue had super massive and really long hibernation dari dunia blogging, jadi baru sekarang deu. 

sumpah itu foto yang 4 diatas dia bener2 lagi dalam masa jelek apa ya .__. autis bgt mukanya, rambutnya juga lagi gak berponi :( hehehehe

-was a supersweet couple-

 yang ini di captured waktu udah gak pacaran lagi lho.. hahhaa.

we're still cute. Yes, even we're not a couple anymore.

Katy Perry!

one of the pop singers yang gue gak pernah bosen liatin mukanya dari dulu pertama kali tau who's Katy Perry. No idea deh gayanya dia yang super centil itu emang bener bener mempesona :3

even if you're ugly, you're still pretty. ambigu ya..

wth you're doin Katy?

HEY KATYYYYY i just love you so so so so so muuuucccccc. No one would ever as cute as you are! <3 font="">

Monday, February 11, 2013

This' just so true

"The saddest thing in the world is when two people, who at one time knew everything about one another, act like strangers." -@damnItsTrue

Sunday, February 10, 2013

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dear girls.. (from boys)

#Don't assume that guys won't care where you are, because we do.
It makes us feel secure to know that our girlfriends aren't off flirting with guys we've never heard of.

#Also, don't talk about your ex-boyfriends.
We never have, nor ever will respect or like them, nor do we want to hear about them.
When you do, you're asking your boyfriend to be jealous.
You're asking your boyfriend to lose trust.

#On that, don't hump everything that walks into the room.
We don't care if you talk to other guys.
We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.

#Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/ cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.
Don't tell us we're wrong.
We'll stop trying to convince you.
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
Yeah, you can quote me.

#Don't be mad when we hold the door open.
Smile and say "thank you."
Let us pay for you.
Don't "feel bad."
We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.
Smile and say - everybody together now - "thank you."

#Kiss us when no one's watching.
If you kiss us when you know nobody's looking we'll be more impressed.

#You don't have to get dressed up for us.
If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have, put on every kind of makeup you own.
We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you are.

#Don't flirt with guys when we're not around.
We'll find out. Trust us.
We have eyes everywhere.
And when we find out, we're pissed.
Not necessarily with the guys you flirted with, more-so with you.

#Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.
Don't get angry easily.
Stop using magazines/media as your bible.

#Don't talk about how hot Tom Cruise or Brad Pitt is in front of us.
It's boring, and we don't care.
You have girl friends for that.

#Whatever happened to the word "handsome"?
Why does everything have to be "hot/sexy"?
I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with "Hey handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy" or whatever else you can think of.
Claiming girls or guys to be "hot" shows immaturity.

Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, don't wait for him to change.
Find someone who will treat you with utter respect.
Someone who will honor your morals.
Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.
Miss Alfi

the worst moments in life

1. Not getting a text back.
2. "I'm fine."
3. Cancelled plans.
4. Having a great day, only to be ruined by someone.
5. Burning your taste buds.
6. Feeling sick and tired.
7. "I'm sorry, what's your name again?"
8. Not getting enough sleep.
9. Turning the radio station the end of a good song.
10. Being ignored by people you care about.
11. Feeling alone in a room full of people.
12. Failing on a test you studied so hard for.
13. Crying yourself to sleep.
Not being missed.
15. Being replaced.
I’ve learned. I’ve changed, I’ve grown. Maybe things do happen for a reason, maybe they don’t. But no matter what, they still happen. That’s what we need to remember. I learned to stop analyzing things, to just let them happen. And if I get hurt, or if something bad happens, then it happens. There’s nothing I can do to change that.I’ve learned to follow my heart, and that it’s okay to make mistakes because the ones that matter, won’t care. I’ve learned that love really is as great as they say it is. I’ve learned that your friends can save you from your worst enemy: yourself. And most importantly, I’ve learned that today is all we have.
After a while,

You'll learn the difference between holding a hand and falling in love.
You begin to learn that kisses don't always mean something.
Promises can be broken just as quick as they are made.

And sometimesgood byes really are FOREVER.

Miss Alfi

Letting Go

To let go isn't to forget, not to think about, or ignore.
It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret.

Letting go isn't about winning or losing.
It's not about pride and it's not about how you appear, and it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past.

Letting go isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and it doesn't leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness.
It's not about giving in or giving up.

Letting go isn't about loss and it's not about defeat.
To let go is to cherish the memories, but to overcome and move on.
It is having an open mind and confidence in the future.

Letting go is learning and experiencing and growing.
To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow.
It's about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will
soon gain.

Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving.


It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy.
To let go is to open a door, and to clear a path and


Saturday, February 9, 2013


Broke up

Hei dudes. Akhirnya kisah gue sama ramadhan dwiki saputra harus berakhir dengan kata putus. 1,5 taun alias 18 bulan kita bareng-bareng. Murni LDR magelang-kebumen. Selama ini jarak bukan penghalang… kita berdua sama-sama gak pernah mempermasalahin jarak. Awalnya, kita ketemuan seminggu sekali, aku selalu usahain gimana caranya bisa pulang ke magelang. Dan you know… kalo gue inget itu yang gue pikirin adalah ‘ya allah.. gila ya, aku berjuang buat kita’ lama kelamaan kita ketemu 1 bulan sekali, malah bisa 3 bulan sekali. Dan dia hebat, dia sering dateng kesini.. Cuma buat ketemu aku beberapa jam aja. Sampe pernah dia nginep di hotel soalnya gue gatau dia harus tidur dimana. And again.. he fought for me, terharuuuuuuuuuuuuuu :’) Cuma LDR yang bisa bikin kamu belajar kayak gini. As the time goes.. gue jg gatau kenapa dan gimana.. somehow I could not fight for you again. Maaaafffffff :’(

Thankyou so much for your big love, your sacrifices, your faith, your hugs and kisses, dan semuanya! Gak bakal bisa lupa…….. precious 18 months.

“karena susah banget cari cewek kayak kamu diluar sana, yang bisa nerima apa adanya, yang sayang banget sama aku, yang bisa ngajarin aku cinta itu apa, yang bisa jadi penyemangat setiap harinya, dan kalo aku lepas dr kamu.. aku takut gak bisa nemuin lagi cewek kaya kamu. Kamu satu-satunya pacar yang tak eman-eman, yang tak jaga bener-bener, aku gak bisa bayangin kalo aku tanpa kamu. Aku gak bisa. Aku dah terlanjur. Aku pacaran paling lama sama kamu, LDR pertama kali juga sama kamu. Aku takut gak bisa move on.”